advice: stop reading while you are ahead

cried today. a lot. for no reason. assholes. family was okay today. strange.

i have no money. please send me some. then i can buy food. unless you are derek. who thinks i always look fat. but really he doesn't. he was joking. i don't like jokes like that.

i'm burning fall out boy. my sister is burning kelly clarkson. man. i'm lame.

wish my job paid more. and had more hours. it is enjoyable. but hard to pay bills. derek gave me $4. i took it because i am poor. then i slept with him. does that make me a whore? shit.

grandpa gave me $20. said gas was expensive. i agree. poop on gas. i wish you could use urine for gas. i pee a lot. that is neat.

apologies. to all who deserve it. and to all who have read this far. you are lame. me too. we are lame together. crap!

todd is going to be a firefighter. i know it. he doesn't. he has confidence. but not about firefighting. he rocks. derek would be good in human resources. he does well with people. lauren is doing advertising. i wanted to for awhile. bet she is better. i hang out with these 3 too much. make it stop. also jameson. he doesn't work. but he is smart. he rocks my face off. brie said that first. i like it. i take it. mwahahaha. missy said that. shit. not original. lame.

wanted to actually post. wish i had thoughts on something. heads empty. must catch up on z's. will do so now. then work. i like work friends. wish i hung out with them more. they are cool. you all would like them. maybe the 29th. i will be drunk. fun.

bye.


"no i won't cry on the outside, anymore."