the "it" in the sunroom is stirring

daylight is almost upon this lonely little town, and yet i'm still here at the computer. why i'm not curled up in that warm, cozy bed just 15 feet away will remain a mystery for the time being. but for some reason or another, i have had no desire to go to bed any time before 5 for the last few nights. no real cause for concern there, i suppose. the real issue at hand here, is that i have been waking up around 8 AM still and i haven't had any real desire to take a nap after class. oh well, though. i guess i should just be thankful for the extra time to finish projects, workout, or just be a bum with the group. nah, i'm just kidding...i don't really get anything else finished in my extra time. all i really do is post in stupid blogs or start new ones or try to teach myself html. you know, the important stuff!

need to have a talk with that sister of mine sometime soon. maybe at the wedding next week. sometimes she's the only person who can understand my point of view while calling me on my bullshit at the same time. i guess it probably has something to do with her psychology studies, but i also have come to realize that it's a talent she's developed over a long period of time just through the sheer number of people she deals with on a regular basis. the awesome thing about her is that she always seems to be there for people whenever they need someone. i'm sure she's seen her favorite shirts ruined by the gobs of mascara running down faces and that she's lost countless hours of sleep thanks to middle-of-the-night crises. and yet she wants to do more for people. she wants to reach out and help people that she might not run into in her personal life. i love that in people like her because i know that there is no way i would ever be able to handle that much stress and responsibility. that's ok, though, i'll just play with my tv's so that one day i can make a decent program that highlights the amazing talent and drive of different people like that.

early morning ramblings for the day include: love for all. it is derek's mom's birthday today. he didn't know until yesterday. my jaw hurts pretty bad. can't quite open it 3/4 anymore. damn. open soccer tomorrow will rock my world. but the $5 cover is lame. derek can't go. did i mention it's his mom's birthday. i want to play the game of life. i'm amazing at that. i'm also amazing at golf but only when i sing hawthorne heights to myself. tony taught me that. he is an avid slice-er. i'm tired. sleep. now.


"no i won't cry on the outside, anymore."