unaffected

there never seems to be, because what i believe
a moment i'm not trying, to show them who i am.
why can't they understand, the things that they're denying?

they're denying....

so what should i do? just lay next to you
as though i'm unaffected? and who should i be
when they're judging me as though i'm unaffected?

a chance they'd never give, to ever want to live
the life that i am made of.
there's nothing left to prove, my hearts forever true.
what is it they're afraid of?

afraid of...

so what should i do? just lay next to you
as though i'm unaffected? and who should i be
when they're judging me as though i'm unaffected?

before they even saw my face, they knew that i was not the same
and decided i was not the one for you.

for you...

so what should i do? i'm not unaffected.
and who should i be? i'm not unaffected.
so what should i do? just lay next to you
as though i'm unaffected? and who should i be
when they're judging me as though i'm unaffected?

unaffected...


thanks to hoobastank, i now have something i can listen to when, at the end of the day, i'm completely exhausted frome pretending to be someone that i'm not. so many people have so many expectations for me and i don't want to let anyone down. instead i put on a smile and do the act they're expecting to see from me.

and i'm pretty sure they know that it's just an act; however they still want me to continue with the charade. it makes them comfortable. should that matter? i really don't know. will there ever come a day that i put my foot down and force them to accept the real me? i really don't know. honestly, i don't even know if i have ever forced myself to accept the real me. do i even know who that is?

no worries, though. more than likely the next time anyone whom this refers to sees me they will see the person they expect to see. it's just easier that way. it's easier for me to be the one who is "not unaffected" by everything. i know that i can take it. can they?



"no i won't cry on the outside, anymore."