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it's only human nature to second, third, and twelfth guess yourself, right? seriously. wish that was over with. not so sure if it ever will be, though. and if i am second guessing decisions i've made up to this point and ones that i am in the process of making, does that mean that i've made a mistake somewhere? the adage tells me to "follow my heart," but what am i supposed to do if my heart isn't speaking up? i never get those gut feelings about the direction i'm headed anymore. is it because i've grown accustomed to it all, or is it because it isn't right? something about it all just isn't right.

on another note, i have a newscast to put together by monday night and i have absolutely zero packages from my reporters to plug into it. bull honky. you're done.



"no i won't cry on the outside, anymore."